The First Judgement

[supremejudge]

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Many people would rather swallow a lie than a truth, but there are only so many lies one can tell before the truth is eventually realized. And even then, some people still would rather live knowing it is a lie. Here, it is quite evident that this is true. Although there is a fine line between someone wishing to live a lie and forcing someone to live a lie, they are both despicable acts. That being said, do you realize whom exactly you are trying to fool?  You may not have an idea of the depth of the crime you have committed, and even if you do it is most likely you do not realize the consequences that are awaiting for you before and when you come to your end. You can choose to hide and cover your tracks, however.... there is nothing that can stop you from inevitably getting what you truly deserve.

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[convallariaceae.livejournal.com]

Does it really matter where we are?

You're alive, either way.

...I can't help but feel as if your voice sounds familiar...

oh Yuka

[supremejudge.livejournal.com]

It matters, but clearly it seems you have easily become so accustomed to here that you don't sound like you care at all. Becoming so used to living here is something that is inevitable, I see, if you live here long enough.

Kazami Yuuka, it seems you have lived so long you are able to become quite forgetful of those you cross in your life. I assume this means you also forget those words I exchanged with you concerning your longevity. That, which, simply by continuing to live is a sin in itself.

...

I would hope my voice would sound familiar.

She did it on purpose :3

[convallariaceae.livejournal.com]

Ohh yes...it seems I do vaguely remember you now. Shakeiki, yes? [Name mis-pronounced on purpose.]

And I say such things not because I have lived here long enough to grow accustomed to it...I say it because as someone who does continue to live...where I live hardly becomes an issue.

I will continue to live...no matter where I am. Why should I stress myself over where that happens to be?

Had a feeling!

[supremejudge.livejournal.com]

Why should you not? Do you honestly continue to think that when you are at the mercy of someone who could toy easily with someone's life by making them bend to their will? Are you willing to say that when you just may become like those mindless beings who can no longer call themselves individuals?

At the very least, do you think of trying to stop this?

[convallariaceae.livejournal.com]

Though all I have to do is learn how to play their little game...and I'm fine.

In fact...this game is incredibly easy to learn how to play. It's even easy to learn how to bend the rules a bit.

Though...I cannot say I ever really think of stopping this. Sure, I would rather be home than here...but...watching human swine trapped and slowly broken is just too amusing to pass up.

Humans are getting what they deserve...even non-humans as well. It is so fulfilling to watch them cry, scream and attempt to claw their way out...though they will find no way to escape.

I find it simply delightful. And now look...the great Yama has even been kidnapped. Is there no end to their power?

Will you cry, scream and claw the same way? I assume you will say no for right now...but how long will that last? I cannot wait to see how this affects you.

totally youkai moe

[supremejudge.livejournal.com]

This is the kind of result that comes from having an unnaturally long lifespan. Youkai such as yourself can become prone to being unable to fully handle the strain of those painful experiences that may come along sometime in one's life. At least, not without some heavy consequences--as for every action, there is a consequence.

Their power appears to be infinite, as even in my mind I cannot easily fathom its end. However, there must some sort of weakness somewhere. There is nothing that can be truly considered 'perfect' that exists. From that I can ascertain that it does have a limit and therefore an end.

What I cannot wait for is when everyone, including yourself, is freed from this town.

At least someone appreciates Youkai Moe :3

[convallariaceae.livejournal.com]

Unable to handle the strain?

No no, you have it all wrong. I quite enjoy it. Almost to masochistic levels.

Though I do enjoy giving others those painful experiences as well. It's all a part of the great circle of life. Existence was made to be pain and suffering...I am only fulfilling its will...and enjoying the truest experiences of the world.

I agree that there must be a weakness somewhere...but I will not bother with it. I will enjoy my time here...then someone will find a way to defeat it and I will return home.

Once the chink in the armor is found...I doubt they would have the capacity to hold me if I wished to go.

[supremejudge.livejournal.com]

Hmph. I suppose maybe in the end, you will think the same, or perhaps you will think differently when judgment comes upon you. It would be even better if you realize sooner that existence was not made to be just about pain and suffering. If that was so then surely not many would hold much value in existence itself. With existence comes sorrow, pain, happiness, comfort, discomfort, wretchedness, and then there are the many other experiences that one has as they live out their lives. Without one aspect of existence, you cannot have the other.

It would be similar to trying to live believing that existence is simply made to be about happiness. Although, like you, they would be strictly basing this assumption upon their experiences in life or due simply to their unwillingness to think otherwise.

I doubt they would have the capacity to hold anyone back, once that weakness is exploited.

[convallariaceae.livejournal.com]

Truly the great Yama is quite wise.

However, are we not shaped by our experiences? You live outside looking in. You judge others based on your own judgment.

Life is specific to each creature, is it not? My experiences shaped me into who and what I am today. For years upon years I suffered. Until those years became centuries...until the centuries became millennia.

Pain never stopped. For me, life is pain. For me, life is to give pain to others as well...it is all I know. Though, I do try to stay out of the affairs of others in my pretty little garden. Even there I cannot escape pain and suffering.

Say what you will, but what have your experiences shaped you into...being on the outside looking in?

[Is this sad story true? Who knows...but it sure does sound convincing.]

[supremejudge.livejournal.com]

[Surely, it is and there was no doubt of that to the Yama for a few reasons.]

I have seen countless murders, celebrations, and the such, but clearly none of those were mine. If one isn't disciplined enough, then easily their feelings would run rampant as it may be difficult for one to deal with seeing many events.

There were many hurdles and obstacles in my path, as many as there would be in anyone else's if they reached for that goal they really dreamed of completing. So I had to work hard, and I did so until I was successful.

If there was one thing I learned was essential it was hard work, discipline, compassion, diligence, and tolerance. If I could, perhaps I could pass on these qualities on those who lacked these and if possible other good qualities they may lack as well. Perhaps, I would be able to influence them in the end to do good deeds.

...But in the end, whether you decide to choose the right or wrong path solely belongs to you. To choose to overcome whatever hurdle in front of you, whether it be a physical one or not.

[convallariaceae.livejournal.com]

[Yuuka starts LAUGHING. Oh my God she seems so absolutely amused by what she sees as a completely naive view of life.]

Hard work, discipline, compassion and diligence? My my but you have spent FAR too much time outside the confines of the mortal world to truly understand what that brings you!

Those are simply lies. Lies told to mortal children so that they will work hard for their community with blind faith!

It truly grants you nothing! It grants you only disappointment and shattered dreams! Oh what a privileged life you've lead being able to follow such hollow values and still reaching the point you've now reached!

[supremejudge.livejournal.com]

[Shikieiki isn't exactly surprised at her reaction nor her words. It is possible she was expecting this.]

I have, and therefore it is probably for that reason I did not have such misfortune befall me as it would if I have lived a life in the mortal world. Yes, that's right...a hard-working farmer could still have his crops fail even when it is time for a bountiful harvest. I live by different values because of my different experiences and therefore mine are not realistic according to yours or possibly anyone else's. Then again, there are those besides myself who have these values and lived a mortal life, even if it was a hard life.

Lies? Yes, these words can be used as lies but they can be used as the truth as well.

If it grants nothing, then why do people still trust and help each other? If it only grants disappointment and shattered dreams, then why are there people who are content with their lives and those who live out their dreams? Well then, who is going to follow these values if no one will? Who will go to heaven if no one is willing to commit good deeds?!

There are people who live their lives for many years and still suffer, yet some will still work hard. Struggle is an important factor of life, and even though reality will deal you a harsher blow than any blade you must pick yourself back up.

Through hardship one must strive to work diligently, show compassion even when no one else around them will, have tolerance, and treat everyone equally. You will receive your just reward as you persevere and keep these values as you live your life. You can choose to lie in your despair, make others suffer, or perhaps continue to live a life that's a lie. Now, by living a life of denial, it doesn't grant you anything. When all is said and done, you will realize this truth!

[convallariaceae.livejournal.com]

[Oh goodness. Yuuka's laughing REALLY hard now. It sounds like she's having trouble getting it under control so she can at least breathe.]

Why thank you for the little fairy tale.

But...do you really think I want to be granted anything out of life? Do you really think I want to scrape and grovel and behave myself so that your naive judgment may grant me some wonderful reward?

Perhaps I should have followed these guidelines you place upon life. At least if I had, I would have been dead thousands upon thousands of years ago and would no longer have to care.

But I didn't. However, you seem to think I didn't work hard.

I did. In a very different way from your sunshine and rainbows view of how one should...but I did. Survival was a full time job, quite some time ago. However, the world full of humans and selfish creatures that wish to destroy me through their ill-conceived self-righteousness deserve absolutely no compassion from me.

I will in turn destroy them through my own ill-conceived self-righteousness...and thoroughly enjoy delivering such a punishment.

Continue to believe in fairy tales if you wish. However, this place in and of itself is proof against your childish beliefs on how the world works.

Enjoy your prison sentence that you were arbitrarily given without any explanation.

[supremejudge.livejournal.com]

...

I see. With such strong convictions, I imagine you picture yourself easily with a greater understanding of how the world works. Of course, I could be wrong but it is hard to tell with the arrogance you carry yourself with. Your experience is just one of many -- although it may be due to solely that you are blind. It is easy not to think of many different possibilities when you have been taught only one, especially by force.

I wish otherwise for yourself, Kazami. This 'prison sentence' is not made for anyone to enjoy.

[convallariaceae.livejournal.com]

What a little sweetheart you are. It almost sounds as if you feel sorry for me in some way.

Oh...e-excuse me...I think I'm tearing up a bit...[A very obviously fake sniffle.]